Shades of You

Different shades of you
dull, vibrant and blue.
I'm sitting in your footsteps
lurking away in your past shadows
not quite a figment of your imagination now.
What went wrong my love?
Was it only the fucking that interested you
or was it the notion of your mere indifferences?
I remember the dark skies and the rainy days.
I remember the warmth of the fire that togehter we lit
and I remember your infidelities that burnt in it.
Is she a better fuck than I was,
or is it the notion of mere conjugal appearances
or perhaps both?
I see us and our limbs being torn apart
and amidst all this torture that we must bear
I also see a tunnel of hope
but until it is reached, I must lurk away
in the many shades of you...

Asima 14th March 2010